my mind

It's been awhile. But let me just come out and start. I am depressed. I always have been. I never could succeed at shit I did. Every girl I talked to fucked me over. I always thought about suicide. Like honestly I never got anything right. Finally I find a girl I love. Things a're going ok. Sure I pushed her away because I didnt wanna be hurt. But I started to change. I was trying. Yet now it's over. I feel like shit. Nothing to do. Just sit here. I guess that's it that's me. Idk if I'm missing anything bit yea

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    Chicks aren't worth killing yourself over man, take it easy

    i wasnt gonna do that. but it is just hard
    - buddyfoeva December 24, 2013, 6:17 pm
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    Keep your head high bud. Life is what you make of it!

    yea thanks man
    - buddyfoeva December 24, 2013, 6:23 pm
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    This is a great time to have some fun with life. Think of as many small behaviors we have that make up the status quo, things like not striking up conversations with people near you in line, not disobeying bathroom etiquette, not making paper hats out of news paper at a starbucks, not complimenting/ casually hitting on girls in front of their boyfriends and then making her boyfriend feel awkward when he gets mad by laughing and walking away or doing the same thing to him that you did to her, other weird shit, and then just start doing them. It takes your mind of things, you build confidence, you get desensitized to what people think and being hurt, you have a lot of fun, and you meet a lot of interesting people.

    yea i hear ya. im gonna try and make sure she understands how much she means to me. she loves me i know she does. i kinda pushed her away though. I still wanna be with her. and with all luck i will again someday. I got sad when she told me she couldn't stand it. but im gonna show her why she liked me in the first place. i know im gonna have to do other shit to ease my mind like you said. she is the first person i truly care about.
    - buddyfoeva December 24, 2013, 6:22 pm
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    hey, shit like this is hard to talk about in person but a back and forth thing like posts with their time delays dont help too much(in my opinion) seeing as i've been pretty much doing the exact same thing for years now. find a buddy hundreds of miles away you can call or try the skype group(i'm on sometimes but i'm trying to be more often). i've got a friend 800+ miles away that i call when i have issues and she calls me. we've never met but i feel like i know her pretty well seeing as it's been about 5 years. i build support groups out of anonymity, others build them out of face-to-face contact. find a setup that works for you. hell, i even use some people on my WoW guild(dont use trade chat, please.)
    we're all here for you buddy(foeva) see what i did there? if you need a number i'll volunteer if you need someone to talk to.

    i suppose i'll leave with some witty parting words(heh, yeah right).
    life is what you make it, nobody holds you down but yourself(and tape)(tape is sticky... heh...)

    oh yeah, and this guy, he seems pretty heavy
    giant robot wallpaperzco

    • December 25, 2013, 12:49 am
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